I don’t like roller coasters. I don’t like heights. I suffer from motion sickness. You would think that with all of this, I would avoid roller coasters. Except it seems my life is one big roller coaster. From moment to moment life is constantly changing. The ups and downs of life are making me a little crazy.

A couple of days ago my computer decided it didn’t want to live anymore. I don’t know if I had just worked it to the point of suicide or if it was a combination of things. This is the third time it’s made this attempt and this time there wasn’t much to be done. There was a moment of relief. I am usually pretty well prepared. I have everything photography related backed up to an external hard drive, discs and to an on-line back up service. I spent a great deal of time researching most of this stuff. I didn’t want to lose what was important. Yet, an hour after my computer deserted me, I felt an unyielding pit of despair growing inside of me. All that music I had amassed is gone. I never got around to backing that up. Some of the new photos of my own kids were gone. I was going to get around to backing those up.  There are soooooooooooooo many funny e-mails my Mom has sent me. They’re all gone. Perhaps I wasn’t clear on what was important. Coconut M&Ms were eaten. I am not willing to discuss the emotional eating from there any further.

I began to spiral down into a clear case of shocked depression. Then the spouse says … “It will be fine. We just have to figure it out.” I started to level out as I began to think logically.

Then the new computer debate began. What would I get? When would I get it? How would I pay for it? Clearly, I was going to have to sell a kidney (or a husband) to get a new computer. Back into a spiral.

Then last night the spouse says yes! We will get you a new computer. The iMac in fact. YAY! Since it was on my list, I get to check one of the things I’ve been saving for off. I go out this morning in a spurt of energy and pick it up. I was giddy.  I am at the crest of this coaster and I feel good. I get home and start to make it usable …  You never realize just how much you use something until you go to use it several times and it’s not there. We’re not in the death spiral yet people. It’s fine. Look on the bright side. I’ve saved so much!

Then the spouse calls and we’re discussing our day. I tell him how time consuming it has been getting this new computer together. He is shocked. Apparently, when he said we could get a new one, he didn’t mean today.  Death spiral.

*SIGH*

It ok though because he was just wanting to go with when we got it. My head hurts.

Ok, so it’s not a roller coaster photo! I told you, I don’t like roller coasters. I do however, like these kids.