I come from a long line of artists, musicians and social workers (don’t ask) … Is it a wonder that I feel at home when I’m being creative? I have been feeling a little down lately. Feeling as though some of the excitement I’ve been mustering for my business and life in general is starting to dissipate. It probably had begun long before I realized it. I watched the movie Secretariat with my children last week. Have you seen it? It’s an excellent movie. I found myself crying at the end. This isn’t news for my family … genetics leads people in my family to overflow from the eyes quite regularly. I was struck by the determination of the main protagonist. She a homemaker who had a dream. She risked everything to see something (she felt was important)  all the way through to the end. Win or lose. I won’t tell you how it ends. You really should know. There were two things I was struck by …

1. Her will. She did not let what anybody said stop her from what she wanted to do. When things looked dire, she continued on. She prevailed.

2. She showed her children she was capable of more.

So this last one may not mean much to people who are not parents. In the middle of watching this, I realized I wished this for myself. I want my children to see me as more than a line cook, maid, homework helper, driver, annoyance, nitpicker, and embarrassment (not there yet but I’m sure it’s coming). I want to be someone they can be proud of. Someone they know doesn’t give up on something she believes in. I want to earn their respect for going after my dreams. Once again, I was slacking in that department. Man! I hate it when that happens. Since then, I have been thinking constantly about what I need to do. How I need to move forward & make my own way. Gotta get the movie on DVD too. That’s on my list of things to do.